Life with Cesilia

Woman. Hispanic. First Generation. All of the words that define me as well as place a restriction on what I can be.  Ever since I was little I knew I was different. I just felt that life was more than getting married at a young age and having a family to which there is nothing wrong with that if a women decides that is what she wants. I just liked the idea of independence, the idea of exploring who I am outside of a traditional Mexican woman. As a first generation, the idea of getting my bachelors degree was always my dream as a way to make my parents proud and show them that their sacrifices in this country was worth it.  As a Hispanic woman we learn from a young age that in order to be liked and taken into acquaintance for a man to marry us, we have to be submissive to them. We also have to less smart of a man and let them feel that they are above us, the macho alpha life. That way of thinking always bothered me because we are more than being submissive. We should be encouraged to fo

 There's people in this world that as they grow up they just know they are going to move to a different state. I wasn't one of them. I really love my state of Texas and moving away never crossed my mind but when I met my fiancé I knew it was bound to happen since he had started his business. Financially it just made more sense to move to him since we were going to make more money here than back in the state of Texas. Of course when we are in love we don't care about anything else as long as we are with the person that makes us happy. That is how I felt too, I Just wanted to be with my fiancé all the time that I was excited. The reality is, I miss my family and Texas. Don't get me wrong, I love being with my fiancé but everything is so different. I love the culture that Texas brings and especially the food. I went from being around of different cultures predominantly Hispanic to a lot of white people and that's a big culture shock. I'm learning to enjoy my new lo