The Sentence that Broke Me

 Before I moved to a different state my father said "ahora si me voy a morir porque quien me va a llevar al hospital'. That sentence translates to "I am going to die now because who is going to take me to the hospital ". At that moment that I heard him say that I laughed about it and said "dad you can just call 911". His statement just really caught me off guard that I processed it afterward and I couldn't help but cry for a couple of days. The feeling of guilt that still creeps up on me from time to time still lingers. That was my dad way of showing his emotions and what he thought to the fact that I am leaving them. From another person perspective what he told me is not okay. Why would my father tell me such a strong statement knowing he has 6 other kids that will do anything for him.  He will never know the damage he did by telling me those words. He ruined my happiness that I could've had  in this new state with my fiancé. I do forgive my dad for telling me that because I do understand his perspective. I was the one that would always be there for my parents when they needed anything. I will just never forget what he told me and  I will for ever cry when I remember those words.